It's early in the morning on the first day of 2010. I was just reading through the beautiful book of James, Aimee and the Boys are still sleeping and their Dad is out cold with pillows over his head lest any crack of morning get around the shades before He's ready.
Although I know many people are tackling this day head on, at the moment I'm feeling more like Paul... I really want to pull the covers over my head and ease in a little at a time. Looking at a year in front of us is harder than looking at just a day... today.
My heart groans with the longing for resolutions but not like the lofty goals of tradition: such as getting better about Thank You cards (which I must do) or having a perfectly organized house (the ever elusive endeavor). The resolutions that are hammering away on my heart are the ones still yet to come:
Little Marie's visa extension is up in just days... to return to Haiti will mean great suffering, when will the agony of her fate be resloved? Will she receive yet another extension? Will her adoring US foster family finally be named guardians? She is so happy and signs with her little friends at school, giggling and sharing that brilliant smile of hers. I still remember vividly when she first arrived from Haiti, the way she kept her face buried into the crease of the sofa and rocked back and forth unable to connect. I was with her day to day as she opened up to the world of hope that her missionary hosts released in their love. We need a resolution.
Too many children are dying without homes and without hope. We need a resolution.
I must reflect on God's infinite understanding for more than a moment. He has known the end from the begining and the end is good in every way that the world is bad and then some. I have been given the awesome opportunity to rescue and adore two beautiful boys who needed me almost as much as I needed them. The Lord knows that Paul and I have hearts wide open to welcome more children as we have seen the difference between life and death for thousands of kids like Gates who are losing their will to live every day... is a loving family. At this point in our lives we do not see another adoption on the horizon but we advocate and encourage and support at every opportunity. Our agency has contacted Paul and I about becoming Family Ambassadors for waiting children. Until the resolution comes, "Even now Lord Jesus?" we will be a part of God's plan to love one another this year... and next year too. Happy New Year. Change the World Instead of Yourself... it's doable:-)
Although I know many people are tackling this day head on, at the moment I'm feeling more like Paul... I really want to pull the covers over my head and ease in a little at a time. Looking at a year in front of us is harder than looking at just a day... today.
My heart groans with the longing for resolutions but not like the lofty goals of tradition: such as getting better about Thank You cards (which I must do) or having a perfectly organized house (the ever elusive endeavor). The resolutions that are hammering away on my heart are the ones still yet to come:
Little Marie's visa extension is up in just days... to return to Haiti will mean great suffering, when will the agony of her fate be resloved? Will she receive yet another extension? Will her adoring US foster family finally be named guardians? She is so happy and signs with her little friends at school, giggling and sharing that brilliant smile of hers. I still remember vividly when she first arrived from Haiti, the way she kept her face buried into the crease of the sofa and rocked back and forth unable to connect. I was with her day to day as she opened up to the world of hope that her missionary hosts released in their love. We need a resolution.
Too many children are dying without homes and without hope. We need a resolution.
I must reflect on God's infinite understanding for more than a moment. He has known the end from the begining and the end is good in every way that the world is bad and then some. I have been given the awesome opportunity to rescue and adore two beautiful boys who needed me almost as much as I needed them. The Lord knows that Paul and I have hearts wide open to welcome more children as we have seen the difference between life and death for thousands of kids like Gates who are losing their will to live every day... is a loving family. At this point in our lives we do not see another adoption on the horizon but we advocate and encourage and support at every opportunity. Our agency has contacted Paul and I about becoming Family Ambassadors for waiting children. Until the resolution comes, "Even now Lord Jesus?" we will be a part of God's plan to love one another this year... and next year too. Happy New Year. Change the World Instead of Yourself... it's doable:-)
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